Six Scars to Remember Me By

You insecurities are buried behind the shell you wear –
Just a thin layer of sweet sweat and stale beer.
Cigarette smoke resides on your fingertips
And I inhaled the suffocating scent.
You leaned your lips in to brush my neck;
Pulling me closer in,
You know what it's like to have been there.

Pupils wide with fear – or is it something else?
You know this place all too well,
There's no point hiding it, I won't deny it,
I gazed steadily into your eyes.

For a moment in time, perplexed or confused,
You realized the same things that I knew.
It seemed like a decision you would not make,
But your feet stood their ground,
Not once wavered by my mistake.

Sympathy filled your eyes that soon grew to sorrow.
The hours spun on and I began to understand,
If not today, I had always tomorrow
To take your hand and change.

In your arms I felt a recurring thought
I've been unable to shake for a while.
It's filled with sweet tunes you play only for me,
And topped with the smile that is mine so secretly.
Brimming with kisses that only I can receive;
But drowning in sorrow and grief is the unperceived.

Tremor after tremor and I still fight to stand,
I won't let these ghosts bring me back down.
I've said it before, but I'll say it again,
And I'll believe it even after my words justify the end.

Will you catch me when I stumble?
I'm not begging you to stay.
Our connection may be profound,
But I like it this way.

Because when I see your face, my mind forgets the world,
Even if for a moment, I like to think it's perfect.